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ramblings of a teenage girl

oh my .
the day that you went missing !
i couldnt believe it
missing for a week
and you didnt tell anyone
how could you ?!
i cant believe you would
just pick up your stuff and go like that
i was so worried
i thought something really bad had happen to you
you should have seen S
he was soo worried about you
he looked like he cried
but what cheered him and me up
were the stories of you when you were younger
such a delinquent that you were
and the stupid things that you did
were actually soo funny .

i miss that
now that S is gone
we barely even get to talk !
you like disappeared off this planet too
D:
As much as i want to scream
It just wont come out
My voice just doesnt reach you like its suppose to
But maybe its not my fault
maybe it's cause you're an ignorant bastard
who lies to try and cover up shit
I'd rather have you tell me straight
Then lie to my face
Cause when you do
It feels like you dont trust me
But in fact I trust you more than anything in the world !
Well I did before ...
And now i'm not too sure
I don't even know if you're sorry
But i want you to know that I am

I AM SO SORRY FOR WHATEVER I DID
D:
I can't tell you anything. Although you came a long way, I am sorry.

i cant believe that youre gone
and just left me here alone
you're probably right here with me now
i must be an ass if i didnt notice you
how long has it been since that day ?
15 months / 475 days
i miss you
i hope you understand that
i couldnt go to where you were
if i could id be there everyday
when i heard that you were gone
do you know the pain that hit me ?
i thought it was a joke
since you and him were always fooling around with me
when i learned that it was the truth
i was the last to know, find out and be there for both of you
how could i have been so stupid ?!
i hated myself for being so foolish and useless
if i could turn back time
id switch places with you
if i could find the guy who did this to you
id make sure he'd live a long harsh life
im not being hard on myself
i just cant let go of the fact that it was you
hey so if you're somewhere up there
and happen to be reading this ,
i want you to know that
i liked you or loved you
i dont know what to say
it was so hard to deal with this
cause of soo many other problems
( HINTHINT: Guys )
i just want you to know that
i'm sorry for letting you down like this
i'm sorry for not being there
my understanding is that you have a girlfriend
therefore you are not allowed to be like that
do you know why ?
because i dont want to be the one at fault

why are you so different ?
when we are alone you act real nice
but when you're with your friends , your bros
you're too 2 faced !
you treat me like trash
and don't even give a fuck about me

OH ! so, im just some random girl you met ?
I'm really starting to feel sorry about your girlfriend
And I know you're not worth it
but even so , i dont know why my heart is attracted to you
You obviously don't know me
Though you say that you do
Though you say that you can see right through me
Even though i say im okay
You just shrug and move on

How can i face you if you're like this ?
How can i do anything ?
I put on a mask so i wouldn't get hurt .
I put it on so i wouldn't have to
get compared to your girls .
I put it on so that i could hide .

If I take it off ,
wouldn't it break?
Wouldn't it just be harder ?
My Letter to You
HAHA . No ! i didnt copy this from anything .
It's true from the heart . ;]
This was made yesterday

You must need to know how i feel ,
you can laugh if you want . (:
Either way i can't get hurt ,
anymore than i already am .

I guess i really wasted a wish ,
on the shooting star that we saw together .
That or it just never came true ,
and i got my hopes up for no reason .

You probably didn't even have a clue ,
I fell hard and and couldn't get up .
It wasn't your fault ,
although i was running towards you .

The only goal in front of my eyes ,
and i couldn't learn how to let you go .
The times that we were together ,
were often my most happiest moments .
I'd do anything for you .

But i guess im learning this the hard way ,
It's time .
I can't spend time on this forever ,
cause right now the tracks stop at a dead end .
In the middle of this conflict ,
I don't think i can deal with it anymore .

If its alright let's make memories ,
And remain friends forever .
And when the time comes ,
let's bring it all back ;]

This isn't a goodbye ,
But just a separation for the time being .
I think i need some time ,
to reflect and think this over .

I'm running out of time ,
but atleast maybe one day you'll know how i feel .
Do what you gotta do ,
So it's for the best .
and don't worry about me ,
Cause i'm sure i'll be just fine .

There's nothing left to say ,
Except ,
next time we see a shooting star ,
why don't we both wish for something worthwhile .
Something that we can both hope for .

- Sa

p.s. i just wanted to know if you feel the same

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