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ramblings of a teenage girl

The truth is i am actually having a one-sided thing for you ,
I know I'm not the one you think of & I'm sure as hell not the one you need.
So why can't I make these feelings go away ? I listen to you talk and talk about
all these girls and their looks , you're making things worse. Yet you're the only
thing that I want to have , I know that's a little selfish , I knew you were the
one by the way that you made me laugh . But maybe you think differently ,
I'm probably just a friend or something less cause I'm not like the girl that you
once had way back then . She was your everything while I'm just there . You
close your eyes when you look at me and don't even bother to atleast try to
pretend you care. I'm not stupid ; I see it. But I never want to believe it , so go
ahead ; You can continue to not see me , to not hear me . But please just don't go
purposely rip out everything I have for you just cause you found out that I like
you . I smile to myself idiotically whenever i think back and remember the way
you laugh & your smile . You're so tall compared to me and I'm always having
to look up . You may smoke and do other certain things but I don't want you to
die yet , atleast not before me . You're not dumb , you just have your own way
of doing things . If you think that you have screwed up everything , just look at
me , I'm a nobody . One that's playing this stupid game , that I would lose
everything to in the end and gain nothing at all . I wouldn't call this love , neither
would I call it like , but one thing that I no for sure is that it's way beyond that .
So -- hear me out , though you'd be the last person on earth to read this ...

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